Why does this make me pissy?

Soccer (EGYSL) pays to use the fields in RM per a use agreement. This year, it was $2700.00. We were to have the soccer field, the outfield of the majors, the outfield of the new softball diamond and Riverview Park. The outfield of the softball diamond is not suitable for game play and is barely suitable for practice area. The new "soccer field" should have afforded us at least room for two fields. Because of safety issues, we have one field there. Riverview contract has Wednesday's wide open. We did it like that for a mens league that was practicing there. I don't know if they still are.

This year we have at least 318 players. Last year we had 311.

Last year we weren't able to use Stonehouse during set-up/use/take-down of Summerfest's big summer blow-out. We paid for it. Same thing this year. I'm kicking myself because I picked up the bag and made sure we had a contract with RMA for field use. It was such a rushed deal that I totally forgot about Summerfest jamming us up. In reality, if Summerfest were to happen at another park in the community, it's likely practice would be canceled at least on Friday night due to everyone going to the carnival!

Barb says (and she's right) that I'm just being stubborn. It's three days of non-use. If the money is that important, get Summerfest to "donate" to the club. I don't want summerfest's money. The Club doesn't really need their money either. We'd have to give it back to the community/Club in some way and there honestly isn't anything we need. If we had perfect useable fields, we could entertain the idea of benches for the teams. If we got something portable then there is the off-season storage issue. Safety is a concern too. I wonder where the liability would be if someone hurt themselves on a bench. The Club itself doesn't have insurance, that is all under EGYSL's umbrella.

Am I "jealous" that baseball gets so much support and donations? What exactly is it? Maybe it's the fact that this soccer club has consumed me, and with the exception of Paul, I'm not sure it has the same meaning to anyone else. Nobody. We get over-looked. We try to take care of everything ourselves so as not to be extra work for anyone else (maintenance in particular) so we can bring a healthy soccer club to our friends and neighbors and their kids.

I think thats it. Soccer just doesn't matter to anyone else the way that it matters to me. Hmmmm... Further validation that I need to loosen up my grip. Loosen it to the point that I'm no longer touching it.

Then comes the frightening thought of "what would I do with myself?"